tonight i feel unbalanced and lacking inner harmony and i have no idea what to connect this with. most likely it's mainly physical, as i'm so fucking tired and feel drowning in my body problems. i hate this, i hate this job, i hate people. and tonight i feel like this is overpowering me, because when i am thinking of quitting, i am scared. although - is it the job's fault? something tells me that this is the same fucking demon i keep fighting with. my devil is my fear. he is changing shapes and he is coming from different places, but it's the same one.
i can face you, faceless creature. i am stronger than you. i am on the horse ready to go.